December 2011
4 posts
Sitting alone in my car with my fries looking through facebook feeds that don’t concern me at all. This most likely, at least in my eyes, makes me a loser. Someone engrossed in everybody elses lives except my own. Deciding I am a discard and yearning for others attention that I think I don’t deserve. I don’t know why I’m like this. Why I’m so ant-social. Maybe it was...
What I learned this semester is that I am a late bloomer and that my OCD has gotten in the way of a lot of critical development in my brain. I know I am smart, however there are things I should have learned a long time ago. Confidence I should have instilled in myself in high school. I am sad that “getting better” is going to be hard for me, but I am glad I am able to recognize all of...
Second to last performance, maybe ever in chamber choir. I feel.. Sad because I have been in this choir for so long. I feel scared that my talent level is limited to chamber choir and that I won’t excel in jazz ensemble. I feel sad for my singing career that may not ever be. And I feel sad I did not establish myself as well as I could have in chamber choir as a leader and assistant to Dr....
